when the going gets tough
just stare at it,
& when ure tired, just sleep.

when u wake up the next morning,
feeling worse
regret & just cry your heart out

hoping a miracle would happen which does not exist
repeat the whole process again

thought it was a therapy.
ive been there done that & doesnt work.

and now im trying eating.


read betwenen the lines
& then tell me what u see..
u ll get it someday .

boo hoo now im in store doing my damn assignments.
and rohana a dot is clearing th water. sigh ~

now im like having damn mood swings.
no im not having pms thingy.
dont know why
im tired of school
im tired of doing assignments.
im tired of her antics. fuck it.
im tired of waking up early.
im tired of being blank suddenly.
im tired of her giving the 'ure so dumb , dont u get it' look plus tone.
im tired of thinking.

anyway now theres and R & F added to the chip and dale family.
woo hoo.




now i miss my old class -.-
cause i dont like this friend. ok ni prangai like budak kecik but seriously uh !
she just keep whining and tak adat sia seriously.
cannot take it till wanna smack her face.

i havent had my precious sleep since yesterday
and a proper sleep since dont know when . sigh ~
have to work some more. knn . cb cb .
now im like grumpy humpty dumpty.

bye i seriously gotta study.


school is getting more mundane.
glad that holidays are coming in 2 more weeks
woo hooo ~ then bole go jogging . sigh
i wanna go places where ive never been before in singapore uh.
hehehehe.

now i know how hard it is to find jobs these days
my brother have applied 15 application as a technician in various companies
he just finished applying the post for a prison officer.
now he s going out to look for a part time job.
i really hopes he gets a job soon.

na im sorry for being a useless friend.
i just kept my mouth shut the whole time
stare and nod. i am listening.
im just scared that i will make u feel worser.
so i thought keeping silent was the bestest way.
i see u re like so fragile nowbut u wont show.
u have to let go of your feelings before u can move on k.
whatever it is please be strong dont think to much please.
love u na ((:


i feel nauseous.
i forced myself to throw up but i just cant.

i know he s not just a past which u can let go
but u have too
u thought he might be the best but u never noe that there might be better
hang in there cause i know ure strong
dont let urself fall because of a fucking guy.
to me this is not a case of karma its revenge
sorry but im not trying to make him look like the bad guy
if its karma it should happen on its own but he did it.
and dont worry about the chip necklace cause im gonna get a new one for u.
u noe u could always count on me right.
like what i said in the yellow letter,
i ll always be like the stink on ur feet, always there ((=
u dont need a man for now aite.
and dont die before 21 )):


oh no my throat is being a bitch right now.
it was not so bad a while ago.
i think i made it worse by drinking coke -,-

now im still in store, trying to finish up my report . what else.
i want to pee uh but too lazy to walk to the toilet. sigh ~
i just dyed my hair red, medium auburn to be exact but its oso not visible
thats the thing about DIY.
purely based on luck .
im so gonna buy a shade lighter (=

kit said u were naive = innocent + gullible
i agree to the gullible part
but innocent, i ll have to think twice after what uve done.
i still cant believe ure that kind of person.
dont ever judge a book by its cover
so cliche yet so true huh .

hurray to me for finishing the report which i have to redo back.
datasheet mostly done

i think im in need of chamomile tea badly.

giess what, i seriously thought it was a saturday today
righthhhtttttt, how dumb can i be.

i notice the part of me deteriorating ever since,
shit. look at the mess ive got myself into.
but i dont regret.



11 more minutes and my break is up
sigh ~

know what suddenly i thought of travelling with my friends sia.
but can wait long long uh like that.
i think when i turn 18 or 21 can ?
jom uh na lets go to KL together.
and then go to PARIS if we become rich -,-

ayuni now like grumpy cause she want smack miley cyrus to shut her up
said she sound like 60 year old.
and wei feng sad cause his void high.
said because makcik very fickle minded . sigh ~
and jr my new store manager is not as bad as what i think .
just that he like to check blinspot . hahahahaha.

work is not as fun as it used to be
but gotta live with it uh.
duit nye pasal. kukuku
i miss herman and old bigplash family ):





"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"- Marilyn Monroe

This words carry a whole lot of meaning. Seriously.
Not trying to philophical uh but it really make me think.

So today i just stayed home the whole day to redo the freaking report that MR KOK fucking rejected just by looking at the no. of pages and not the content.
Left with 2 more reports, 3 more datasheets and 2 more tutorial oh ya + a case study ),:

yay im proud that i didnt spend my money unnecessarily so far.
but i ve been wasting it on gums , chewing gums.
ive been chewing on gums lately, lots of em.
luckily it for healthier teeth also (=

ive been clean so far.
really really happpyy goooberssss.

na, dont take what i said just now to heart k

i miss my family. my happy family.
very much.
i miss those times we went to haig rd or beach rd for out late dinner.
i havent had a proper conversation with my mum since dont know when.
when did we ever last had a proper meal or even a happy chillax moment as a family






i know dont ask why i decided to start a blog. hehe .