im tired. physically tired, mentally drained.
your are on my mind not cause i miss you.
its because of what u did to me.
i ve never hated someone this bad.
i would cry thinking about it but today i broke down.
and yes rohana was the one to hear me out at my lowest point.
i felt pathetic & lost . no correction i feel.
but the thoughts plus emotions that took over me was just way too much.
fuck you . fuck you so very much .
and thank u for picking a date that s so fucking memorable
and it was a great advance birthday gift ive ever had .

but dont worry i havent lost my soul to you.
just that the wounds u left behind would never fade.
i never knew u could be such a jerk. a big one that is.
i dont wanna talk about u anymore. fucker.

one day u'll see me without a ciggie in my hand.
na , i dont know whether that ll happen.

i dont why i ve stop believing in myself.
i think cause im just lost.
time is all i need.
but it ll never wait for me.
wait till i get my shit back together .

till then nights


shit . shitty. shithead. full of shit.
fuck. fucked up.
cibai cibai cibai.
puki. pukimak.
sial. sialan. sial .

first u accused me of stealing the jewellery
now your money. what the fuck

then u came home causing a fucking mess.
but in the end u were wrong.
eh sial get your fucking facts right eh.
da pai seh muke takya gitu abe takmu bagi taik.

i use my own money to do things that are legal and right
but u are trying to stop me.
saying im wasting my own money ? eh cb pegi mati la.
okay so now what u want me to spend it on fucking booze and stuffs.

actually i dont quite get it
what the hell you want from me.
just as i thought i was doing fine.
oh yah i forget im never right.
all the things i do are never right.

im tryna be optimistic as i can
but with u everyday bringing me down
& rewinding things, its not gonna work
sigh sigh.
people tend to forgive but not forget.
so how ?

i was so angry pissed off that i cried.

okay i wanna rest my brain.