abang thanks eh .
orang pikir nak bebual baik baik aleh2 mara orang
thanks suke sekali .
and kalau nak mintak tolong orang pun cakap baik baik uh
pukimak. bagi no. kakak. takde pe no. kakak.
pikir aku orang lua pe kau bebual mciam gitu..
abe tak bole cakap baik2 bila nak suro angkatkan baju
cheebai uh abe tak paya nak tengok orang semacam pe.
tadi pagi aku da nak try buat baik dengan kau
abe kau pe sial, mciam bagi muke sial kau.
ok uh aku tau pada kau aku ni da macam taik
uh ye aku do stupid things, isap rokok abe minum
tak mcm kau kan anak kesayangan , anything goes punye.

uh yelah bilang camne nak survive besok nak kene bayar $10 aku hutang kawan aku
abe lagi 10 tolak ez link.
uh tu lah aku peh bodoh pegi pinjam duit orang,
sial .
aku peh pathetic bende simple kene orang belikan

oh and ya one more thing murni kau prangai mcm cb
bile part kau nak aku tolong kau ,
wah bukan main lagi call pagi2 bebual panjang lebar.
part aku terus takde time
kau peh sial. eh takpe da biasa pun eh
aku pun siapa sia kau nak tolong kan

and just now was the fucking deadline for almost all my assignments
and fucking guess what i didnt hand in a bloody single thing
cause everything was messed up.
ma please nur nak quit sekola uh
sekarang .

u always thought i was ok with school
but im not.
u just noe i dont like the environment thats all
i want to quit schoool . please mama . now.
i dont wanna study for my papers anymore
cause why its fucking plain waste of time

i studied liek shit for just now paper
and i fucking think im gonna fail
waste of time and effort,
so now no need to study and fail better
so have reason to quit.

and na aku really sorry uh
i noe u re angry uh k but like what u say i cannot do anything
except sayign sorry like pathetic kan gitu
aku sorry uh for not being the friend.
bye na dont worry aku wont trouble kau lagi.






heee.
hello back to u na. hmm ok lets trace back when i first know her.
its like 5 years ago back in secondary school days .
yeah we werent as close as we are back then
but im glad that i have her as my friend. cause she s the best u could ever get
like only she could tolerate my nonsense, know me almost inside out.
be there whenever i need her. heard me broke down. told me not to give up when i almost wanted to.
she s the only one who've heard me at my breaking point, when i almost did the stupidest thing .
i was so lucky she picked up that call , if not i wont be sitting down here typing all these great things about her (=
she would go to the extent of bringing food for me cause she knew i was hungry
the list goes on and one thing
her stubborn ness like oh my god dhoby ghaut sia.
but the weird thing is i ve learn to control my short tempered- ness when im with her ((:
i just realised it sia . kental -,-
we did all those stupid stuffs together but it was fun . hehehe.
the point is i cant imagine not having her as my friend sia. confirm like krit krit. haha.
i cant wait till all these shits are over & be really really happy .
promise that ive got my sparks u ll be the first to ride it & yeah u'll get hold of those spare keys.
i know uve broken a few promises here and there & to tell u the truth yeah i was very disappointed but i trust u, that u wont do it again .
& i swear i nvr felt like that on that very night when it all happen.
u are like a sister but closer than that , a bestfriend which ive never had.
so if anything or any fucking person dare do any shit to u, i swear i ll give that person hell and not let him go so easily. trust me i would do something to him & maybe that girl.
im glad u saw that deep inside i really care about u.
whatever it is i love u na.
belly belly much .

& pay day i swear im gonna bring u to buffet so u can grow fat and normal like u used to be.

oh yeah ure gonna see me one day without that ciggie stick.
just fish no ciggie or ciggie smell otey (((:

Labels: rohadot

Labels: flings and nothing more

YESSA NOW S THE TIME WHEN I CAN GO FUCKING NUTS
LIKE FUCKING FUCKER
ALL MY FUCKING SHIT FUCK ASSIGNMENTS YANG SIAL DARI PUKI PEH CIKGU SUME DA GONE MCM BABI
PUKIMAK SIAL PEH ANJING
PUKI AKU TAK TIDO BUAT MCM ANJING
MCM SIAL ABE SUME PUKIMAK UH HILANG SIAL

CIBAI
THEN SUME ORANG PADA AKU PUN CIBAI
ANJING. SUME ANJING
SUME MCM PUKIMAK DIER PEH LAKI PEH SIAL CIBAI

PUKI TUL
AKU BOLE JADI GILA SIAL GINI

SUMPAH AKU DA GILA SEKRANG
MCM SIAL KAN
AKU MCM SIAL
KAU MCM SIAL
SUME MCM SIAL
SUME MCM CIBAI
PRANGAI ANJING BABI
SUME MCM PUKIMAK HARAM SUME BENDE

SIAL SIAL ANJING UH CIBAI
PUKI GERAM SIAL AKU
AKU PEH BODOH PEH BENGAP PEH SIAL
OKAY SEKARANG AKU BOLE LUPAKAN EH NAK MCM PAHAM BELAJAR UNTUK EXAM SIAL
NANTI JADI MCM BUDAK BODOH LAGI
AKU PEH GROUP PUN SUME BOLE PEGI MATI
AKU TK KESAH AKU DA BUAT SUME TAKDE
SO PEGI MAMPUS UH

KAU PUN PEGI MAMPUS SUME PEGI MAMPUS
THEN KENE BAKAR
BEST AKU SUKE SEKALI

OKAY BYE SUME SIALANS CIBAI

OH UH NI SIAL PEH SUNDAL BESAR BEBUAL.

Labels: SIAL PUKIMAK HARAM CIBAI SIALANS

...thats me

p/s: 160809;- i hope that day wont come & wont live for it.



:( :( :( :( :(( :(( :'(



time check 1:16am
what im doing ; still doing my BINSAN report
so i decided to destress by taking pics and see how i look like after a shag(y) day
okay i now im stress cause tmr i dont have shoes to go work at vivo . mcm cb.
bye uh. i need to reusme doing my formal report.


Just try to save me
There's nothing you can change
There's no explaining
And no one to blame

damn i wasted $7.30 on cab fare just now
supposed to work at 10 am but i woke up at 10.30am
baik kan fish.
haha.

so far i have bought 2 tops, one bottom a bangle and a boxer but more like panties. pfffttt .

in 2 days almost half my pay gone.
cb tul.
now i really have to save up !

god i really have to start studying
lets try to keep track
2 formal reports - BINSAN & Envista
3 datasheets - PI , Mat Sci & PMA
4 case studies - Envista, Mat Sci , PMA& polymer science
the best part about it ? all are due on 29th june
okay add my mid exam to that which starts on 29th june .
like cb study assignments and work.

bye dont bother me.







hello my name is hana. i only have 2 important things in my life. rohana & my family. i love them very very much . i know they know that.

hello my name is fish i only have 2 important things in my life. rohana & my family. i love them very very much. i know they know that. but i think they thought those are just words. i dont blame them.

hello my name is hana. i will not waste away my life. i will not give up cause there are so many people there for me hello my name is fish im wasting my life away. i feel like giving up cause im a fucking selfish person. cause i cant take it anymore.

hello my name is hana i know i can change by 160809
hello my name is fish i think i can change by 160809


ish siak uh kau da kenape sia sume bende nak tolak dgn aku
aku tau lah aku buat banyak salah.
aku tau la aku ni anak derhaka da buat byk salah.
but please give me a break for once uh.
kau nak aku change kan
how i wish u noe the whole situation im going thru
fuck it.
u dont give a fucking damn

aku tak minum air dari tadi aleh2 kau nak mengamuk asal aku tak tau nak letak kat sink abe cuci then salahkan aku uh tu bende cibai tumpah kene radio then nak mengamuk tak tentu pasal without getting ur fucking facts right.
okay aku tau aku ni sape.
aku jarang tau pekik then bila aku melenting siket je kau da nak cakap aku biadab
bila anak kesayangan kau mara mengamuk macam nak ape kau macam let it go.

abeh kenape eh kau nak bising bising kat aku.
i know ive did a lot of fucking wrong things
maybe this is how i should pay for it.
kau tau duduk rumah aku naik bingit tau gini hari hari
aku tau k kau penat but takya nak buang sume taik kat aku pe.

uve always said i dont love u
because i dont think when i did those fucking stuffs.
maybe my brain wasnt working

i dont expect u to understand me every fucking times on every fucking things
i dont know what to say

i dont really express what i feel really well
i dont really say what i feel
how im feeling
u should fucking noe it uh.
okay maybe u dont , i assume too much
just give me time but u said its too long
people dont just change overnight
its so cliche but soo true.

im fucking crying i dont know why
like cibai.
fucking cibai plus sial sundal.
i curse alot so what
im human i need to express what i say
there s not limitation
ure my only escape.
u ll never run away.

now im a fucking angry kid.
so tired, sleepy shagged confused lost.

ok bye i still need to do my fucking experiment datasshit !

fuck off & just die thats better.

ugh.





give a man a fish
& he'll live for a day
teach a man how to fish
& he'll live for a lifetime
-get inspired

9 + 7 = 16 august 09
it can be either my happiest or suckiest birthday gift,
so fuck it.

u said dont try , do it.

when im doing something its nothing,
when im not doing anything its something.

sorry if you dont understand this bullshit
you never have to and dont have to.

words are bullshit
actions speak louder
promises are meant to be broken

Labels: philosophical shits

fishy says:
like do u have to fall before being able to pick urself up ?

Yan Hugo says:
yes?
as in?
fall in wat situation?

fishy says:
like for example u just dont know what to do when ur having probs
ur at ur wits end and no one res for u and u keep doing stupid thing
so like do we have to wait till we fall before being able to pick ourseld up ?

Yan Hugo says:
yes dat is partially true..
because onlie wen we fall..
we realise wat he hav done..
and from there we learn nt to do the same ting again...

fishy says:
but if we fall real hard and might not be able to pick ourself up from there ?

Yan Hugo says:
nahh..
i dont believe dat...
if u r nt able to pick urself up den why live on earth...
there is no point living there..
bcoz u are going to sad and in misery all the wae....
this is life..
there are ups and downs...
it cant alwaes be up je...
a person will reach his peak one dae..
and one dae will fall..

fishy says:
thank u arfian i really need that =)

but still i dont wanna see u fall and start picking up those pieces.
im scared that u might just give it all up.

smile cause im always here & i wont be like the others who just pretend to care and what not shits.
and im never gonna let u fall apart just like that cause i dont want to.
i know its selfish but for the better ((=