im tired. physically tired, mentally drained.
your are on my mind not cause i miss you.
its because of what u did to me.
i ve never hated someone this bad.
i would cry thinking about it but today i broke down.
and yes rohana was the one to hear me out at my lowest point.
i felt pathetic & lost . no correction i feel.
but the thoughts plus emotions that took over me was just way too much.
fuck you . fuck you so very much .
and thank u for picking a date that s so fucking memorable
and it was a great advance birthday gift ive ever had .

but dont worry i havent lost my soul to you.
just that the wounds u left behind would never fade.
i never knew u could be such a jerk. a big one that is.
i dont wanna talk about u anymore. fucker.

one day u'll see me without a ciggie in my hand.
na , i dont know whether that ll happen.

i dont why i ve stop believing in myself.
i think cause im just lost.
time is all i need.
but it ll never wait for me.
wait till i get my shit back together .

till then nights