im tired. physically tired, mentally drained.
your are on my mind not cause i miss you.
its because of what u did to me.
i ve never hated someone this bad.
i would cry thinking about it but today i broke down.
and yes rohana was the one to hear me out at my lowest point.
i felt pathetic & lost . no correction i feel.
but the thoughts plus emotions that took over me was just way too much.
fuck you . fuck you so very much .
and thank u for picking a date that s so fucking memorable
and it was a great advance birthday gift ive ever had .

but dont worry i havent lost my soul to you.
just that the wounds u left behind would never fade.
i never knew u could be such a jerk. a big one that is.
i dont wanna talk about u anymore. fucker.

one day u'll see me without a ciggie in my hand.
na , i dont know whether that ll happen.

i dont why i ve stop believing in myself.
i think cause im just lost.
time is all i need.
but it ll never wait for me.
wait till i get my shit back together .

till then nights


shit . shitty. shithead. full of shit.
fuck. fucked up.
cibai cibai cibai.
puki. pukimak.
sial. sialan. sial .

first u accused me of stealing the jewellery
now your money. what the fuck

then u came home causing a fucking mess.
but in the end u were wrong.
eh sial get your fucking facts right eh.
da pai seh muke takya gitu abe takmu bagi taik.

i use my own money to do things that are legal and right
but u are trying to stop me.
saying im wasting my own money ? eh cb pegi mati la.
okay so now what u want me to spend it on fucking booze and stuffs.

actually i dont quite get it
what the hell you want from me.
just as i thought i was doing fine.
oh yah i forget im never right.
all the things i do are never right.

im tryna be optimistic as i can
but with u everyday bringing me down
& rewinding things, its not gonna work
sigh sigh.
people tend to forgive but not forget.
so how ?

i was so angry pissed off that i cried.

okay i wanna rest my brain.








"it doesnt take someone to be an albert einstein to come up with a quote, it just need a lil bit of inspiration "

-fish

at night the truth hits me
but yesterday it hits me real hard that i cried so bad
i ve always wanted to be strong, for myself
but i know just one day i gotta broke down to let out all the feelings.

i always remember what was the date
it was 3 days before my birthday 060809 on a fucking thursday.
& i ve been clean since then
am proud of it but dont think i can do it anymore
if i follow my heart.

i think i ve been doing okay .

hey but dont worry

"i hate you, with a passion that is."

"destroying yourself is already a stupid thing destroying yourself over someone is just dumb. but sometimes you just cant help it"


sweetnights
& im not gonna sleep

Labels: littlest things

i may be a bad daughter
but i wont stoop so low so as to stealing ur jewellery
& dont ever compare me to her.
eventhough i used to be close to her.

& damn it la i rushed home just now you said wanna go geylang
in the end mciam cb dengan muke taik ckap lambat padahal pukul 8.30
since when geylang close at 8.30 ?
puki tul.
eh kalo tak ikhlas tak payalah
aku tak heran la bole beli sendiri
u say i prioritised my friend but how bout u ?
pot calling the kettle black.
even aba is sick of ur attitude la sia.

just go fuck off & die

bye i need to rest.


life is sometimes like a cliche
but, dont make yourself like one .

we have brains to think
heart to feel
mouth to express ?

life is a game.
so that makes us the player.
but who s controlling ?

they say dont be shy to ask
if not u will be called to stupid
but doesnt that make urself look lazy if u dont try ?

roses are red
violets are blue.
why the sudden hate ?
ugh just fuck you :D

change of heart
change of minds
life is hard
u cant deny
u touched my heart
& touched my soul
boy where's your heart
your an ass hole

ok this is just random
i write what came to my mind
so shut up.
haha

"Boyfriends might make you choose between your friends. Bestfriends would never even think about that. So you decide which one’s better."

-Eletheowl

i found this in nisa's blog & its like kinda nice.
so yah . haha.

im almost broke cause have been breaking past outside since saturday.
wah piang must stop it already uh.

oklah i have migraine already. cb
bye .